Yes or No?

What will happen this 2days? I don't know and I'm very indecisive! Can I just use a knife to cut off the part I keep on treasure? I want sincere answer for all my questions!
I'm such a coward! I'm so stupid to hurt myself! Yet, I'm still so keen about it! Who can I trust fully? yup, just me, myself! All depends on me. Again! I hate to make decision!
Can anyone in my shoes now?
I'm seriously scared and feel very stress T.T